A drop

Today
A drop fell
The last straw
Suddenly
There it was again

The urge,
I press my nails into my skin
As hard as I can
Just because
Because I wanted to feel something different
Because I was angry
Because I didn’t remember what ells to do

Shit,
It was 5 years ago
5 years ago
I decided not to do this again
Okay
STOP

What now?
I am not allowed to drive to a place where I feel safe
It is to late to call a friend
It is just me
Me and my pen.

28/11/2020